i love you.

Dear Baby J,
Becoming your mom has been the most challenging experience of my life. Being a mom requires patience. Not only am I not known for my patience, I am famous for my impatience. I love you. You lack a sleeping/feeding schedule making it difficult to go anywhere or do anything. I love you. You hate to be put down. I love you. You require so much attention that I neglect your Dad and often feel neglected by him, as well. I love you. My days are filled with trying to figure out how to get you to sleep/play more independently so that I don't have to sit/lay on the couch/bed with you. I love you. I've always been a little bit selfish. You require me to be less so. I miss being able to have time for myself. I love you. I am frustrated by your lack of sleeping. I love you. I wish you wouldn't wake up at 3:00 a.m. I love you. I never thought my child would be my entire world, but you've managed to make yourself the center of my life and I still haven't fully adjusted to the idea. I love you. You are my little person. My little person that I lug around all.day.long. I love you. You are the most adorable baby I have ever laid my eyes on. I love you. You have turned my world upside down and inside out, have caused me endless amounts of stress/anxiety, many many gallons of tears have been shed over your lack of sleep and overall neediness, and I love you. I love you more than I thought I could ever love someone. You are the best!